So I just drove to NY to go a friend’s funeral. It sucked bad and not because my friend is dead, but because all the people who bothered to show had less life then my friend who died. I felt like I could have had a better conversion with Will (my dead friend) then most of these zombie fuckers. Will had high energy; he was always recording new stuff he came up with. I would go to his house and he would have lyrics sheets all over the place and a notebook filled with his own. Will lived the lyrics in his metal and punk records. He believed in being young forever and always saying fuck work/cops/teachers and anybody else in his way. About half way through the funeral I saw my old friend Andy Christ. This guy was a fucking nutcase he had full camo gear on, and when I asked him about it he said Will would have thought it was funny. So him and me left the snooze fest to go across the street to the sleazy bar and have a few drinks. It was great this is what Will would have wanted. Me and Andy talking about future goals and as FILTH said, “living the chaos” On my way home back from NY that day I was listening to the CIRCLE JERKS. Thinking I don’t want to die in a nuclear war and I don’t want to live to be 67. I got to thinking about all the people who listen to hardcore and punk music. All the fucked up lyrics all the abrasive in your face shit are people listening or are they just passing the time?
Some may think I am a high-strung abrasive person. Some may think I am fucked up and crazy. I can understand that and I can face that. Why am I so fucked up? Well if you are a fan of Hardcore or Punk have you ever read the lyrics? “walkin in your line/fuck off I’m feeling fine/shit on your advice” That’s a little something from the IDIOTS RULE demo I have been listening today. “I will shit I on your advice” that’s pretty awesome! KNIFE FIGHT “swallow what your given/you don’t question why/you all make me sick/get away from me” that’s pretty simple to the point but do you believe it? SHORT FUSE “short fuse I’m a short fuse/there is nothing I can choke/ violent temper takes control/there is nothing you can do choleric fury cant be stopped” Does this guy really feel this way? Can he be stopped is his fury too much for anybody to handle? Or at least does he feel this way and act this way? As a punk and hardcore get older I see more and more people on the sidelines. You have all the record collectors/text messaging scene kids. They listen to the tunes but is the message getting through? Do you just like the idea of staying young/hating cops/quitting your job/being just generally wild? Well I am sick of this goddamn motherfucking shit, and I do want to shoot a cop and watch him die. This fucking city is run by pigs and they do take all the rights away from the kids. I have grown cold inside and I don’t give a shit anymore! Why am I going insane why I am I the one to blame? Why are you here the bands or the beer drunk on the floor you think that’s hardcore WELLS ITS NOT! Kids wear your band patches place your lyrics on their walls/you conveyed a sense of urgency/if they could only see you now! Instead of thinking we play donkey kong theirs something wrong with that! Lyric sheets have been written for a reason and stands are taken for a reason. Think about it!
This is dedicated to the Will Hesher a great person who lived the chaos and loved the life he lived.
Anybody who can guess all the song lyrics used in this column I will cook you dinner I swear I will.
Ryan,
I have to tell you dude, being high-strung or aggressive are not things that always have to be frowned upon in personality. Just because you’re not “zombified” like the rest (as you described the funeral go-ers in NY), just because you don’t take things as lightly as everyone else doesn’t mean you have a flaw in personality. Aggression and thinking differently, these things show passion and especially when you can take these qualities, get together with similiar thinking friends, and put music to the background of your thoughts and feelings.
I think for myself, I think for the well being of my friends. Anyone that has some kind of opinion pre-fabricated for me, anyone who wants to judge me for what I look like (and this is being aimed more towards a music scene than society’s view) can fuck off. I’ve met too many handfuls of assholes who want to shovel shit in my direction because they don’t think I fit in, or I’m just not legit enough. Maybe I don’t own enough Ceremony T-shirts, or maybe because my ripped jeans don’t have a DK patch covering the hole, or maybe because I don’t own that classic Flipper Vinyl means that I’m not punk rock enough. I honestly don’t know neither do I care. You know what I say? FUCK their pre-fabricated opinions, FUCK what they think about me because I know that I live for the aggression, I live for fast, loud, and to the point. I live for music I can live my life by with a positive vibe. I will forever be a minor at heart, and anyone who wants to try to come in the way of that can
Fuck drunk punks, how can you possibly feel anything for a message being screamed in your face if you’re stumbling around and slurring your words. You can’t walk or think straight but you’re going to try and lay down your views on society, views on something you THINK you feel passionate about? Well keep your opinions to yourself, your mouth shut until you’re sober. I’m not by any means straight edge, I just believe that music and drunkness should be kept separate.
So ask yourself, are you overly abrasive or crazy? Or are you just passionate about the things you believe in? My best wishes for your friend Will, sincerely. I hope this helps, makes you think, or helps you kill time. Just keep your chin up, and keeping living positive (no pun intended).
-Hunter P. Elburn
-Agnostic Front – Victim In Pain
Ironically I was listening to this moments before reading this.
thanks man you rule, if you ever want to do a column on this site feel free. Show this friday POSITIVE NOISE release show only one buck to get in spread the word its at the cage. If you ever did want to do a column the email address for that is clairerevenge@riseup.net
Hey, thanks. I didn’t know the show was just a buck, I figured it was $5 like usual. But cool to hear. And yeah, maybe if I have some time this week and something to say I might write one up.
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