LIVE FAST, DIE… YOUNG? ; STRESS AND SLOWING DOWN AND “DOING IT ALL”   Fuck, just as I am writing this I am freaking out… Getting back from tour/travelling is always bittersweet; I love where I live; the grass is just as green as anywhere else, and I miss Suzanna, my canine best friend, amazing [...]

Any person who has ever had a panic attack knows the feeling. The sudden horrific excitment being sent to the brain. That feeling is a concentration of searching for somewhere you can be by yourself in order to calm down. When I had my first panic attack, my mom told me to “think of happy [...]

well here it is 2012 and i’ve got some big plans. i made a list and typed it up real nice and hung it up next to my bed. but alas, i think the real answer is to BE MY OWN BOSS. do you do this? do you know someone who has? what’s the trick? [...]

To the music fan, who will hate all acoustic music, but listen to Charles Manson’s recordings and admit to liking it.   This is my take on the punk versus metal debate, the punk vs. the world, and maybe the kid who likes black metal a little too much.   I love all kinds of [...]

The way most of the world – especially those of us who live in wealthy countries like the United States – lives is unsustainable. We eat food that is shipped across the globe, genetically engineered, and processed to the point where few nutrients remain. We depend on resources violently extracted from the Earth – coal [...]

This really isn’t a list but there is 10 numbers on here because Microsoft word put them there. But here is some shit I remember from the foggy year of 2011. I recently discovered NoBunny and Hunx and his Punx, and I might be behind the times on this one, but both have been playing [...]

busy busy busy beehive. a friend of mine, anna, came up with this new term : queening. it’s when you’re kicking so much ass, usually as a woman, not taking no for an answer. organizing events, making your own work, and brightening up your neighborhood. basically, all i’m ever doing ever any more, is queening. [...]

Sometimes I get pretty disappointed and frustrated by the punk scene, both here in Grand Rapids and on a larger level. It often seems like we aren’t getting anywhere and that we are perpetually spinning in circles and repeating the same mistakes, having the same stupid debates, and listening to the same records over and [...]

Walking home from the bus, Tonya and I would play a game where we would try to find the crunchiest leaf before the other person found it. Along the edges of the road in the subdivision neither of us lived in but was the closest bus stop from our houses was where all the leaves [...]

Refusing to let my life get out of focus.  It takes constant reminders, writing things down.  I sometimes have this idea that I shouldn’t need or have to work at it to keep things running smoothly.  This is false.  And selfish.  You start to infect others, your poisonous negativity slithering into their lives.  This is [...]